Saturday, September 26, 2009

Ups and Downs

So, what happened this week? I got to stay home from Highmark all week thanks to the G20 Summit. However, it didn't really feel like I had any free time on my hands, just more time to cook, clean, do laundry, love on Jake and Kayleigh, and grocery shop. Aside from the Jake and Kayleigh part, it wasn't a relaxing week, but I'm thankful.

We had our first glimmer of exciting news on the adoption front, but it didn't work out. We received an email about an urgent situation, in which we decided to have our profile shown. (Normally they wouldn't ask us, they just match up criteria to determine if they will show your profile or not. BUT, in urgent situations, they ask you first.) It turned out that the Birth parents canceled their appointment, which is awesome, because it probably means they decided to parent their child. However, with it being our first time since being approved, we (I) let myself start to get lost in the idea of this situation working out for us. I decided that it's better to be prepared and disappointed, than unprepared and stressed out. So I got prepared. Not over the top, just a few basic things we will need, when the time comes. Then, we found out the time would not be coming soon, or at least not with this situation. I was bummed to say the least. I think it was a good way to break us in, for our first time of actually being able to say, "Yes, we are ready". Hopefully the next time we will get a little closer to being chosen, and each time we will be more and more prepared, emotionally and physically.

It really is exciting, and I'm trying to stand back and look at the big picture. I'm thinking more about buying a car seat, finding a Pediatrician, decorating the nursery, and so on. Important preparations. God already has the right baby ready for us, whether it's already growing in some one's tummy, or just a thought waiting to be conceived, our baby is growing in our hearts, and we will patiently wait for him/her to be cuddling in our arms. *chills*

1 comment:

LabLover said...

I am sorry to hear that things did not pan out and I know how hard it is when you are presented with a "possible". Stay strong and your little angel is out there, just waiting for the perfect time to come around!